Obsideo per monumentum, venator per vereor, atque validus per incendia

Yeah, that's Latin.
Just thought I'd mix things up a little bit..
For this post, I want to reminisce about this past year.
First and foremost, I just want to say it was the hardest time of my life, by far.
I endured much pain: losing the one I loved, family hardships, quarrels with friends...
But through those hurtful times, many doors were opened. Yes, the times were hard. Yeah, I shed a lot of tears. And of course there were days when I just didn't feel like continuing on down this difficult path.
But if it's one thing I'm most definitely not, it's a quitter.
Tomorrow, February 1st. 2010. I broke two hearts. You probably remember my post from around this time last year. I was in bad shape.
But because of that pain, I learned valuable lessons about relationships, heartbreak... and myself.
In this past year, I have broken ties with a few people... But in breaking those ties, I had formed new ones and renewed relationships with old friends who I had taken for granted.
I've matured a lot, in the way I go about doing things. I used to just do whatever I felt like... But now I think about the repercussions of my actions.
And I've taken a liking to Latin. ;)

I've Been Thinking Lately.

I've been having a lot of deep thought about the events of my life lately.

They haven't all been pleasant.

In fact, a lot of them have been far from that.

But they have all opened doors for better things to happen.

First of all: the breakup.

Yeah, those eleven months of depression sucked.

Like, a lot.

But... I learned how to deal with deep emotional hurt. And that I can't open myself up so completely. Especially to someone who is just going to take my feelings and crush them by running off with some little girl.

Another thing I learned was to be happy for someone, even though they hurt me. I'm very happy for him. Even though I'm not who makes him happy, he found someone else in this world that 's fulfills him. That is really what I want. What I have wanted all along. And isn't that what love is, anyway? To want what is best for the other?

Anyway. I've also learned what responsibility really means. Responsibility, in my dictionary, means to show respect to others, even when you don't agree with them. Because that is the right thing to do, even though it may be uncomfortable. Like, my parents for instance. They care about me and they put rules in place to keep me safe. Ignoring those guidelines would not be prudent, even though it isn't always what I want to do. I love my parents dearly, and I don't want them to feel disrespected because I don't like their rules.

Enough serious stuff...

So I found the most AWESOME phone the other day. I was all excited, cuz it's a Droid, but it looks like R2-D2! I was super nerding out in the Verizon store, talking about how I wanted it so bad for my upgrade. I told my friend, Cody, who up and decides HE'S gonna get it before me >.<

I know it's pretty lame to blog about this, but life has been kinda boring lately, except working all the time. School starts Tuesday, yay! I'm very excited, winter break has lasted wayyyyy too long in my opinion.

Anywayyyyyy time for bed. Spending the day with my mama tomorrow before work.

Later, my loyal readers.

<3

Words, Words, Words

Yes, that is a Bo Burnham reference ;)

Man!

I have been neglectful to you, my poor blog. I am deeply apologetic!

Hmmm.

Life.

What have I been up to lately?

Well... School. Yay for school. Sometimes it vexes me... Other times, I enjoy it so much that I can barely contain myself. (this doesn't happen too terribly often...) Either way, I love learning new things. Aaaand dissecting things! Yum....

Sheep braaaaain....

Ees a CRAWfish!!

Yeah, gotta loooove biology lab!

Also, I got a new job. I'm a sales floor team member at Target! I'm loving it hardcore, seriously. They hired me for a seasonal position and told me last week that they wanted too keep me permanently. Needless to say... I was pretty freakin happy.

Oh! Puppy pictures :)

This would be Jack's "Christmas outfit." Poor puppy...

There was food, so he didn't even notice his ear was flipped back.

I just love the way his legs are contorted here.

Such a sweet puppy, curled up in amongst my school books.