I've Been Thinking Lately.

I've been having a lot of deep thought about the events of my life lately.

They haven't all been pleasant.

In fact, a lot of them have been far from that.

But they have all opened doors for better things to happen.

First of all: the breakup.

Yeah, those eleven months of depression sucked.

Like, a lot.

But... I learned how to deal with deep emotional hurt. And that I can't open myself up so completely. Especially to someone who is just going to take my feelings and crush them by running off with some little girl.

Another thing I learned was to be happy for someone, even though they hurt me. I'm very happy for him. Even though I'm not who makes him happy, he found someone else in this world that 's fulfills him. That is really what I want. What I have wanted all along. And isn't that what love is, anyway? To want what is best for the other?

Anyway. I've also learned what responsibility really means. Responsibility, in my dictionary, means to show respect to others, even when you don't agree with them. Because that is the right thing to do, even though it may be uncomfortable. Like, my parents for instance. They care about me and they put rules in place to keep me safe. Ignoring those guidelines would not be prudent, even though it isn't always what I want to do. I love my parents dearly, and I don't want them to feel disrespected because I don't like their rules.

Enough serious stuff...

So I found the most AWESOME phone the other day. I was all excited, cuz it's a Droid, but it looks like R2-D2! I was super nerding out in the Verizon store, talking about how I wanted it so bad for my upgrade. I told my friend, Cody, who up and decides HE'S gonna get it before me >.<

I know it's pretty lame to blog about this, but life has been kinda boring lately, except working all the time. School starts Tuesday, yay! I'm very excited, winter break has lasted wayyyyy too long in my opinion.

Anywayyyyyy time for bed. Spending the day with my mama tomorrow before work.

Later, my loyal readers.

<3